Worry Not

Dendrite Opal
Dendrite Opal

Where are you at today?  Are you worried? Is your worrying helping you accomplish what you need to do?  Or is it an obsession, an uninvited thought that keeps entering your mind?  I know that feeling.

What if I were to let go of that thought, to be as light as the air and breeze along the grass and whisper into the tops of the trees.  Possibly it is not the thought that is bothering me but the feeling that is attached to it.   I think on this, many times it is a fear.  What am I afraid of?

Sunset over the apiary

I start a journey in my mind, I think of a happy moment.  I hold that emotion in my body.  After meditating on it, my mind may go back to my fear.  Can I look at this without a negative emotion?
Can I focus on what I would like the outcome to be, but not be attached?

How will my worrying change the outcome?  Intellectually I know that it won’t.  Than why am I doing it?  Could I view myself as a habitual worrier?  I think so.  I have decided that this is a habit I want to break.  As with all bad habits we want to break, it will require discipline

.Ocean Sage Sea Glass Jewelry

First, I must understand that what I am worried about is an illusion that I created.  It is not here now.
How many times when the situation that I feared so much arrived, and I walked away wondering, “what were you so worried about?” I was worried about an illusion that I created in my head.

My next goal is to be aware when a thought attached to a negative emotion arrives.  I remind myself that what ever my dominant thought is, my focus, will become my reality.  I will actually attract it.  My intention is to think about it in a constructive manner.  Not to fear the outcome, but to know and trust that I can learn and grow from it either way.

Thank you for taking the time to read my thoughts.  I look forward you reading yours.  Together we can collaborate on sliding down the rainbow of life together.

Tree of Life~ What does it mean to you?

Sea Glass Tree of Life
Tree of life with sea glass

“The tree is more than first a seed,
then a stem,
then a living trunk,
and then dead timber.
The tree is a slow,
enduring force straining
to win the sky.”
-Antoine de Saint-Exupéry

Green Sea Glass Tree of Life
Green Sea Glass Tree of Life

Studying trees I am memorized by the movement in the leaves,
the way the sun filters through,
the way they are reaching upward calling to the heavens.
The tree branches are most defined in our “Family Tree of Life”.

Tree of Life on Sea GLass
Natural Sea Glass with Tree of Life

The trunk is the pillar of the strength of
our family.
The trunk shows its integrity as it provides the tree with it’s protection of the surrounding environment.Our roots will ground us, keep us connected with the earth. We will receive our water which we will
perish without. The earth is the mother of all.  We are all connected to her.
The tree was created from a seed,
a small seed that carries the information on what type of tree we are, what we will look like, who the tree will become.The seed is the belief in a miracle.

Garnet Tree of Life
Garnet Tree of Life

May our trees of life continue to grow and evolve.

May we recognize our mother nature as our gift to survival.

May we give her the love that her life force has breathed into us.

Give our planet the same nourishment it has bestowed upon us.

I believe that love and respect are one.

May we live to respect everything around us.

Or we will perish, all or our tree, our branches,  will die.

Always prepare for the trees future, and respect our past.

Advice From a Tree

Tree of life with gemstones

Stand Tall And Proud

Sink your roots into the Earth

Be content with your natural beauty

Go out on a limb

Drink plenty of water

Remember your roots

Enjoy the view


Being open to the possibilities

“Life is a field of unlimited possibilities.” 
Deepak Chopra

I realize how important it is for me to stay open to the possibilities of a new possibility.

The choices are infinite, and that can be paralyzing. This is why I believe that meditation is essential in our lives. To quiet our minds and heighten our spiritual focus.

Last week I attended a yoga fest. What a beautiful event. I participated in 4 yoga classes and a meditation. While there I found a gemstone vendor, and fell in love with her stones.

Looking at the stone, I started to see all the possibilities. I wanted to go to my studio and design a pendant, and I did, and I feel really good about it.

Dendrite Opal Pendant
Dendrite Opal Pendant

So as I go out today, I will not try to be invisible, I will not try to be who I think I should be, but is it possible that I can go out and be the best me? “Of course” I said to myself.

Start with Today

When I become overwhelmed with my inside and outside worlds clashing, I know the safest place to be is totally immersed in a project. Something I have complete control over.

When I am in moods such as now, I need a new project, something I have never done before. If I were to start a piece of jewelry? whatever I make, my inner critic will only use it against me.

My study for today is getting recipes for tinctures. In my garden my oregano is looking bountiful. It is my hope for my future. Planning something that I can look forward to. Taking today to prepare for it.

When I hear the self sabotage echo? I go into my brain and I plan, for the future. I am not in the future, but I am in today. It’s a reality that I can create. It takes my attention away from the chaotic energy of things that I am not yet prepared to deal with. I have reached out to people, but it’s not working right now.

I have other herbs that I am preparing for. One is stevia. So sad to see what the food industry is doing to such a beneficial medicine. By chemically altering it, it becomes a cheap and toxic beverage and food sweetener. To get the benefits from this herb, it must be
Stevia Rebaudiana Whole Leaf Extract . I will not go into the studies, If you would like to learn more here is a great blog:

I do love talking about technical aspects and scientific studies, but that is not what this post is about. I want to reach out to you and let you know that there is always hope for your future. For me; Find a project, something that i can do by myself, and complete it.
For more information on stevia:

Finding our creative happiness


I read a post from an artist that I admire. I appreciate her even more for talking about the subject that we are taught not to voice. We hear from society that if we talk about what bothers us, we are seeking drama, we are weak, and drain those around us with our neediness.

She spoke of her depression that she has recognized since adolescent. Her painting in no way are a mirror of her sadness and they are full of beautiful brilliant colors, light, and happy.

I read that we can help escape from our imposed prison through our creativity. Painting, writing, gardening, what ever you feel drawn to. I am not a very good painter, and I decided that it would not be the critique of my flower, but the colors that I chose, and the colors that lifted my earthbound spirit into a ethereal smile. I went from the birdhouse, to a beehive, and then to a chair,
and yes, I smile each time I look at them.

My orange world
Healing through color

As I read her post I began to realize that my feelings of inadequacy and loneliness were not so unique.

What I find hardest about my depression is the coping. I fight the urge to withdraw, but I convince myself that it is the healthy choice. I had some one tell me to snap our of it. I asked how?

I can be self confident, but then falter into the depths of insecurity by one cold encounter. I have a voice that tells me it is me, that there is something wrong with me. I then start on the march of self-sabotage.

When I allow the gentle voice of wisdom to speak, she says that it is me. It is my choice of what to believe and how to respond. Today I decided to journal, to be in touch with how I feel. My way of coping is to pretend that it doesn’t exist,
so I never really work through it, and it keeps taunting me.

Our feelings are real, our suffering is the result, but what I am going to accomplish is to recognize all my crazy thoughts. It will be the ground that I will water with my tears, and allow the beauty to emerge. I will focus on my good thoughts, and healthy thoughts as a lily pushing through the soil, and nourish it with the love and understanding that only I can give to myself.


Please feel free to walk on this journey with me. We are all one, we are never alone.